Thursday, February 22, 2007
2:12 PM
Thursday, April 20, 2006
it's too long
the wait
too long the wait for me
12:51 AM
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Merry Christmas.
Go tell your family and friends that you love them.
12:39 AM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
not enough hugs.
too many parking tickets.
that's all.
12:53 AM
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Today:
played music.
played some more music--got paid.
bought some music.
played some more music.
that about sums it up.
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i am optimistic, but impatient.
i'm pretty sure life is on the upswing, but i'm still tired of being where i am.
maybe life is already good and i should just shutup and appreciate it.
then again, i still flip out sometimes.
anxiety is a real bitch.
otherwise, i guess i've got things pretty well.
not perfect by any means.
but i could be a lot worse off.
jesus loves me and i can play guitar--
i guess that's pretty much all i need.
1:53 AM
Monday, December 12, 2005
mixtapes are never the answer.
trust me on this one.
but just in case i'm wrong, i'm going to keep trying to save people (and myself) with them.
7:55 PM
welcome to the first (and quite possibly the last) post of 2005.
i should be doing soooooo much homework. papers. writing.
ugh!
instead, i thought i would revisit the past--ie my blog--in an effort to better understand and document the present, hopefully to create a more positive future.
i cleaned up the blog a bit, a few slight updates, and a lot of getting rid of things that don't work anymore.
right now i'm suffering from a lack of medicine [day 3] due to a combination of forgetfulness, not realizing one has to return to the pharmacy which fills one's prescription in order to get refills, not being able to get to Goolricks before it closed on Saturday, and not realizing that Goolricks Pharmacy is not open on Sundays.
thus, i am lightheaded, sick-feeling, and gross.
a perfect condition to write papers, right? eh?
well, rergardless, i'd best return to my studies.
alas...
12:40 AM
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
blogging is for suckers.
http://qandnotu.org/q_and_not_u_so_many_animal_calls.mp3
http://qandnotu.org/qandnotu-alineinthesand.mp3
2:41 AM
Monday, February 09, 2004
well i am glad everyone else has their rooming situations figured out.
that is great.
i am glad i am not needed in this process.
i am glad i am not needed.
10:41 PM
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
bagostrich: keep being good.
bagostrich: you are very good as ryan.
[idon'tdeservethis]
12:01 AM
Saturday, July 26, 2003
the only thing that's keeping me dry is where i am...
finally.... i return. i'm sure there are -so- many people out there who are interested! uh, right. anyway, life...
so things have been crazy with Pash taking off and all, and I've visited many people, and I've done many fun things. yet, oh how i miss school. all my closest friends live over an hour away at least. i just want to sit around and watch a movie with someone or something. and i don't know how much i've spent on gasoline.
10:36 PM
Sunday, June 29, 2003
so why haven't i posted in forever? i haven't felt like it. get over it.
heh.
lately i think i can relate to that Hayden song...
"It doesn't matter what any of us are looking for, we'll never find it because it's not even there."
whatever, go listen to Owen and find a more interesting blog or something.
10:26 PM
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
i hate job-hunting.
hate.
hate.
hate.
12:47 PM
Tuesday, May 20, 2003
who's got a girlfriend? that's right, i do.
8:42 PM
.filler.
8:42 PM
Wednesday, May 07, 2003
death is not supposed to happen, sin is not supposed to happen, there is not supposed to be sadness or tears or goodbyes or seperation or brokenness...
i.long.for.the.restoration.to.come.
12:50 AM
I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate goodbyes.
12:49 AM
Tuesday, May 06, 2003
So, someone asked me about where music is going...
I feel like today is a good day to make a prediction. And it is just that, a total prediction of which I have no way of being sure. So here it goes, as of May 6th, 2003, this is what I think:
There's been a great uprising of existentialism in music in the past few years--things about meaninglessness and such. I guess it sort of was an inadvertand reaction to overly sentimental "emo" type stuff. "Shut up emo kid, life doesn't really matter anyway." Heh. It works well with post-modern post-rock type music; as in, if the concentration is largely on the self-indulgent pretentious music itself, there is no need for meaning outside of the music. That slowly gave way to, or even coincided with, there is meaning in beauty alone. In the wake of 9-11 and the recent Iraq crisis, musician's suddenly see the value of human life and the importance of politics again. There will at least be some brief resurgence of political themes in music for a while--see Radiohead's new album title "Hail to the Theif," Sigur Ros's apocolyptic video for "Untitled #1," and various other recent releases [Godspeed You! Black Emporer's latest, Of Montreal's recent "If He Is Protecting Our Nation, Then Who Will Protect Big Oil, Our Children?" etc]. Political urgency will bring about more musical urgency. But that won't be all, there'll be an equal and opposite reaction to that with music focused on far happier elements. The dark, brooding elements of recent post-rock and will be replaced with more uplifting ones. Growing popularity of bands such as The Postal Service indicates to me a renewed fascination with electronic pop and how elements of IDM [the mind-bending blips and squeaks mastered by Autechre and the whole Warp Records crew] can fit into that. Instead of the garage rock trend, we'll have more of a retro pop trend with new bands such as "Saturday Looks Good to Me" at the forefront using trumpets and keyboards and the like. Every generation tends to hate the one before it, so there will be less 90's-angst and more 80's-pop in new music, only taken to a more complex level than before [coming from IDM and post-rock].
That's what my thoughts are on the matter. But I cannot say any of it is certain, or even extremely likely.
3:28 PM
Monday, May 05, 2003
artist recommendation of the day:
Mary Lou Lord
Claiming fame through collaboration with Eliott Smith, her soft country voice and quiet, pretty music will draw you in and take you to a warm, soft place. Her talent is obvious in her music and her strength of character is apparent in that she enjoys playing to strangers in the subway. Give her a listen.
5:35 PM
Saturday, May 03, 2003
mature? nope.
9:48 PM
Wednesday, April 30, 2003
we'll miss you alex naden.
2:01 AM
Wednesday, April 23, 2003
Fredericksburg, Jerusalem, Afghanistan
chains, chains, chains
hold back the most wonderful, pure, perfect beings
overwhelming freedom ignored
for mudpies and swampsoup
gracious, spacious, audacious existence,
superabundant, incomprehensible
sold for decay and death
sold for convenient diseases and hopes-to-pleases
sold for hollow excuses of fear and intellect
already destroying the temple's exterior
discarded for forced ignorance and forgotten eternity
disregarded for condoms and booze
to fill up the cavern of discontent
deep within everyman
chains, chains, chains
of dope and no hope and convention
of independance and codependance
of mediocrity and slant-rhyme complacency
hold back the masses--
hold back the single, unique, most beautiful creation
in everyman
repressing perfect liberty
spectacular and explosive,
shining and contagious living
lost to indignation
lost to apathy
lost to family vacation
so we could just get along
replaced by regret
and forever goodbyes
and non-existant hellos
with futile intentions to fulfill
chains, chains, chains
broken by a word--
a thought:
submission
-I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by reality television-
4:31 PM
Tuesday, April 22, 2003
hysterical and let down and hanging around
so i tihnk i should be asleep
type i cannot
but i want to say that my friends let me play bass with them in a band called pash
and a nice person took pretty pictures of us at our last show:
http://www.funtigo.com/ssshhh
they are neat. look at them.
yes i wore too-tight sweat pants and a slutty woman's shirt
yes i looked fantastic
and yes, we're playing in richmond tuesday this now month today technically at 6pm
road trips are yay fun!!!!!!!!!!!
uh, gnite
1:40 AM
Monday, April 21, 2003
Redemption Song
sometimes i wonder what my duty is to other people exactly, if anything....................
[lets be vague today]
these songs of freedom, is all i ever had
well, Christ is Risen. if He can conquer death, He can certainly conquer my inadequacies as a friend/human/etc.
i think i need to finish watching that Harry Potter movie.
1:25 AM
Wednesday, April 16, 2003
life is beautiful.
people are beautiful.
the sky is beautiful.
sometimes, i wish i could exist as only an observer of everything.
but then again, i love creating things.
and sucking the marrow.
i guess i'm a contradiction.
Jesus still loves me.
...i never understood that.
1:10 AM
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